As we step into the new year and I look towards the future and all the many projects I have in mind, I have to ask myself why haven’t I done these things sooner? Was it a lack of drive, or was it my children and my family drawing my attention away? The answer to this is none or the above.
The truth is—it was judgment, my fear of being vulnerable; it’s strange to me to come to this very upfront realization as I have never been a person that dwelled on others’ opinions or let fear hold me back. In truth, I thrive under pressure. And vulnerability is a beautiful divine opportunity for connection with others, because no one can truly see you or connect with you until you are willing to open up and allow yourself to be vulnerable to their judgment.
But there it is, big as daylight and destruction, fear is holding me back. The truth is that in only a year I have conjured my regrets, none of them personal faults as I have yet to do “the thing” because of this stifling hold of fear of vulnerability, of judgment.
As I peer into the new year through this fog of a cold and dreary day, I affirm that I will no longer let my fear hold me back. I will surely screw up maybe Big, maybe just a lot of little times, but through each screw up I will learn, I will grow and on the other side of it I will create something that I have never done before. With that I will find a strength and a pride within myself that I have yet to experience.
The new year brings all levels of excitement, joy of opportunity, and growth.
This Blog was inspired by a audio book: The Power of Vulnerability
by: Brené Brown